NOT OVER HIM


(part 4)
NOT OVER HIM
Never Begin A Story (part 4)

Kali ini aku beneran udah nemuin temen, sobat – sobat yang mang pantes i trust to sharing my problem. Fiza, kakandaku yang lagi grantes coz cintanya yang dia rasa ma mbak Hariyati, ketua pimredku yang dianggapnya bertepuk sebelah tangan. Dan dia musti nenerima kenyataan kalo – kalo mbak Hariyati ternyata lebih menjatuhkan pilihan hatinya pada mas Kuye. Yang tak laen juga merupakan sobat terbaik mas Fiza yang menjabat sebagai ketua PMR, LAMERE SMASA tahun lalu. Apa nggak kenyang agaknyaa kak Hariyati ini juga dipercaya untuk mendampingi mas Kuye dalam mengurus LAMERE sebagai wakil ketuanya yang kini tengah turun jabatan ke tangan Noya’ and Inox. Tambah rame aja. Belum lagi, Ribifana, yang mulai digangguin ma sobat cowok lamaku di SMP. Awalnya sebab temanku itu suka utak – utik hpku aja pas kami berangkat bareng. Tapi kalau dipikir ulang lihay banget dia bisa dapat nomernya Ribi. Tau juga kalau ada orang manis nganggur ! namanya Ugas. Lucu juga, ya ! Mulanya aku kira responnya Ribi tuch marah ma sikapku yang dikiranya mang sengaja ngasih nomernya ke cowok, tapi malah kita keterusan curhat, dech ! gini – githu ! Tapi aku seneng juga coz ada yang mau nanggepin ceritaku yang tambah nggantung dan gak berujung nich !
Ntar .. cbenere u jg cuxa ma Dam? Trus ma2 u dkug gag l0w u nxoba dkt ma dy?? Au rsa u hars prhtungkn kdpanny u kan lbh rugi tao lbh baek loU lnjtin CNT Buta u ma Dam,. Tapi y tergantug unya, s, cl u bs bg waktu n jga dri y au dkug…
Sbrap slt s masalahq? Kog g knjg q tmui slos1Nx? Amp kpn? Sr1ng q mkr jd j x pindh ke banjar-kalsel. Tpi q g tga 5klian.trut5 dy yang aslinx rapuh+psimistis ky q. Dkug bgt c0z bl0 tao bgt low Dam 2 rngX responsble,5ndri+d4 dpcy.dy trll baek 2 dgntungn +X.Trus? q5Dgt? Nonsent, bi.q g ykn gman skpx stlah tao respon+egoq.q tkut hurt h1m.
Shar, maslh u 2 hny sbgian kcl kl0 dbndngin dg rang2 d bwh kt yg buat mkn j ssh? At0 krban bncna yg uda g pnx kluarg,rmh,.. at0 appn jg.cb u fkir kmna mrk mengadu? Dmna mrk mnt slos1 slen ma 4jj1, rish … cm dy yg bs dmntai solus1. n cba qm liat lg dr qm cxrg? Qm shat, kckpan, pnx kluarg, Pny mama yg sll pduli sma Mu, MESKI SKILAS tampk hny mmojokkanmU, tp mama u cm PGN kch YG TBAEK WAT naknya? Jd u cb ingat lg knp ma2u gt? CZ DY PDULI!BRSYUKURLAH! N q ma0 tnya, Dam MC1 PNY CE statuse? Q kwtr mU.
Iya, gppp kog. U g ngras tg3 ja q d sneng. Gra2 ni q d rmh d ky kmbg cng0k, tap ma2q cb k kmar q, q pra2 tdr. Lgpl q rsa q g prl berhub ma D. Toh bis SMA q jg bkl tggl1n dy. It cm kan jd mmor1 badX ja. Q g m0 dy ngras hurted. But q sdar g bkl bs hold him inside me. Pa q trll brlbhn mn1lae cnt? Benc yg nxt? X q d gla. Dy d blak2an s5 q d e5il. Dy d p2sin 5ntanx. Q jg ta0 kog,bi. Cm s5 4jj1 kt mngadu, mknx q forsir tnga+pkranq ni 2 tdrus mpe jus26 ni. Mkash u slal d bt q. Besdia ksh ruang+wkt but q yg plin-plan + eg0 r em0an ni. Bsk snin u bs bc e5ilq 5 D d cerbungq.
Pcy d …Rish. qm bs lwti, kug. Cm wkt yg akn mnunjkkan muar mslah u. Q gmu lyt Derish sobq cinx kdang nyblin cz tngkhx yg mledak2 ky b0m at0m mlae mrdup!? Hehe, q pgn lyt Derish yg brapi2, yg 0ptmis, yg sll t0tl dlm kerjxn appn! Mnrutq qm ttep bs jdkn Damos sbgae inspirasi u dlm berkary. Hehe, mup au g cm bs bnt ap2 slaen mnc0b kash sran2 yg q bs. SMGAT, Shar !!! … smangat ! qm pzt bs, q da wat qm !?’1.
Aduh, bi. Kt2 u mlah bkin q trhru mpek ngis d sni. Bl0n da tmen yg bs ky gn slaen Dew. Mksh y. Kdg q jg bngung pa ngkn it aslix Dam yg brsh 2 touch myhand tp q sll tmpk? Dy yg g prnh Jra mnt htq. Antr s5 r05ntis pa 0tax ngres? Q pun eg0is mnt ampn tnp pduli s2 baekx.
Yg q hrap, q bs lyt Derish yg br dgn jutaan smangt yg br, dgn k0ptmisanx, n rasi0naltasX, yg lbh tegar + tangguh hdp1 sma mslh. CI mslHu mgkn kcl dbndknQ m bkb.
Kliatnx q bnrn d gla. Kt2 u yg bkn q trhr + burn smlem bkn mtq bngkak g bs mlek. Q mkirin ma2q mpek krus bgn.BBq run 15kg, bi. Mgkn snin u bkl liat q yg bru ! ok, sob. Q d siap gmpur dUnia yg g sbrp las ni dbndgkn dgn ciptan 4jji yg laen. Sblix q pun pgn mslh u c4 slesae pla. Yknlah 4jji g kan ksh kt cban yg brt+mlampa0i qt.cz we’re just a little too not over 4jji. Tell us why the problems had 2forget, ddont remind us cz it’s D better situati0ns n conditi0s, AMI3N …
Dya juga welcome banget ke aku, aku jadi gak enak hati. Dari smsnya, aku bisa ngertiin kalau dia itu emang share and care ma aku. Sedangkan aku belum menemukan patahan hatiku yang hilang entah kemana setelah aku mengenal Damos.
Kurasa Damos juga makin care and fair juga ma aku. Baru kali ini aku merasa nyaman ma dia saat he inside me here. Aku … merasa kita, aku beneran terkena symtomps of everything? Oh, no … no way … it’s not over neccesary ! gila ! forget it ! forget it ! forget it ! Derish ! palagi kata – katanya di pesannya yang makin proof that he’s so mature. Gila. May be i’ve hit a blind and teasty in love. Oh, no ! How come it’s happened to me ? palagi setelah Mesti, sobat sekelasku yang bilang “kamu dan Damos serasi, ya ! Pa dia yang selama ini kau maksudkan sebagai Damon itu ?” Astaga ! Bagaimana dia bisa tahu ! oh, tidak ! my card was opened ! bagaimana ini ! Bisa jatuh gengsi dan pamorku ! Tapi masalahnya bukan itu lagi ! berulangkali meskipun terus menanyakan untuk mengkonfirmasikan hal ini padaku ! “Kau, beneran, Rish, suka sama dia !” oh, yang benar saja ! Gimana bisa orang yang ritual tiap harinya berantem dan fighting dreamers bisa saling mencinta ? oh, apa kata dunia ! mungkin benar saat menjelang end of the world semuanya akan menjadi upside down… berbalik … yang masalah itu akan lebih baik aku ambil sisi – sisi posotifnya saja ! seperti kata Ribifana. Aku bisa tetap make si playboy Damos ini untuk terus berkarya. Padahal di mata orla aku juga players, alias pintar menarik perhatian cowok dan mempermainkan mereka. Masa sampai sebegitunya ? Padahal niatku hanya ingin membina pertemanan yang baik saja. I can make him to be my inspirion to keep product a result of art. Oh, kiranya aku memang sedang tertambat rantai rayuan maut ala MJnya. Mungkin seperti selalu ada gubahan lagu “when tell me that you love me” by westlife feat. Dian Ross in the newest version. Setelah aku mendengar dia yang berencana mengajakku untuk memngenalkanku kepada anggota keluarganya, kakak laki – lakinya, ibundanya, banyak. Bagaimana aku harus membalas smsnya ini. Aku hanya shaking in my heart fight always. Don’t you continued that obsesion. It’s make me so crazy and mad but i’ve remember again with the say of the older brother, Fiza, don’t doubt if this love, when she if Damos i guess as he, would touch me, i meant hope me chance, opportiunity to close to me, 1 shorty just can love him inside. On, this teast and feeling so disturb me, harry me everytime, everyday, everyminute, everyhour, even in a hour i can’t see him, may be 1’m so crazy else. I just try, i meant together with my brother, try to be some1 else, but we gathered can’t be because we’re no ability to refuse their existence in our heart, our sound in our shaking heart and in our hick-up in our weak every we can look at their eyes. Large in world. And i can see some windows and can breathe the in fresh and cool panorama in morning which sunny and beauty just for him. I feel so youngest, freh, smartter, higher, and my foolness was gone. OMG ! Help me to forget him ! so i can’t or no need to think about him ! I’m so concious it ! i’m just a little too not over him ! so don’t remind me about him. No way ! No place in heart ! nomore to look at me inside ! Don’t me give time to within, spare time to close to me, to share me, to look at -hold me, to decleare his feeling which the deepest from his heart present to me. It’s just make me and him so hurted, boring, and not good of course !
Oh. If you’ve know about my feeling. Tapi aku tahu memang dialah orang yang tepat dan mampu menempati posisi di hatiku. Sekedar hanya untuk menjatuhkan pilihan akhirku, my endless choice in this story. Never begin a story, in our opening introducing, no fate and farewell, in confused in our relationship, and the last not over him, my feeling in deepest heart during this i knew him, , because i think i won’t ever can to hold him. It’s just make him so hurted, i knew that. I don’ want it happened to him. I am so happy if he’ve been happy ending … too. I love him it’s not meant that i must to have him. I hope he should out of my life, but won’t ever die from my mind and heart. During i can breathe for him. You can feel it. The way you make me feel. I moving forward just for his existence, i can stand and climb the love hill just for we can see we’re on the top of my proudness and no news which appears after i knew him. OMG ! Help me please! I am so keep corious and confused with his movement. Every he tries to touch my Hand, i just can move backward or refuse the reality. I can standing away. Don’t sleep away, Damos. Because i won’t ever able to loose you outside. You’ve spending away my time to clearly thinking. oh, i’m so broken in heart. I don’t want to loose you and get you far away from me. Oh, please this time listen me in my turn. I think i love you cause i miss you away … here with my hopeless and lonely… you’re would got me frustated to remember you. Don’t remind me in past. It can make me mad, so idiot, and so prisoned. May be i’m right i’m falling for you. In my some guys, just you who can make me wonder. You’re so great too in my sight. You can make me move the sight of the world which the first may be it’s called to not over that. You’re look like that in my sight. Altought i don’t believed in first sight.
I should say that,

“Don’t leave me alone.” Altought in reality, i just can leave you over there. Be quite, queque and keep silence to wait me here and please stay with me here in 4 minutes. Derish… Damos,i can directly like you in that accident. I can’t imagina if you’re no there. May be i’s die and can’t see you like this time. In moment just you’ve and your friend, Vino, safe me in the ring road by the srtike and hit of the busway. I can remember the memory. It’s thrilling. And now you can see i’m still alive, writting the letter like this in noon. And now i am brave and dare to claim you that you’re so important to me. I can promise, even tought the Moon are crazy, even the stars a blind, if you show me real love, i’ll show you mine. I can make you nice and naughty, be the devil and angel too, let’s see what this love can do! But i can’t seem to face the truth. Like like comedian drama else in south of korea,
“COFFEE PRINCE” That so complicated. I wish him sing this song “oh, baby, you’ll be safe here” by Rivermaya. My favorite singer. Allby myself don’t wanna be. All by myself don’t wanna live. Anymore. Life’s like this. I just can think”Don’t wanna be a somebody idiot” May be you can think that if you try to look in my deepe of eyes, who is that girl i see? Staring straight front of me? When will my reflection show, who i am inside ? he’sjust too good to be true. Can’t take my eyes over him, he feels like heaven to hold, oh, i wanna hold you much. At long last love has arrived. And i thank God i’m alive. I love him, and i’s be quite alright. I need him to warm the lonely life. I love him trust in me when i say. Oh, cool baby, on’t brig me down i pray.don’t me hurt you… don’t you ever fora second get to thinking. You’re irreplecable. You musn’t know about me about the reason. Cause you’re my first love. Be strong now, too many problems, don’t know where he’s belong? Sure to be the champions of my heart. And we’ll keep on fighting till the end. No time for bug and loser. What’s the worst that i could say. This is a better if i say, so long and goodnight … came on time. When every starlight fall, dan semua keindahan yang memudar, termasuk cinta yang hilang karena tak ada yang abadi. Teruskanlah kau begitu. Andai saja masih ada kesempatan kedua aku ingin dapat menghapus lukamu. Cintaku bukanlah cinat biasa by Afgan. Kusadari tak selayaknya, selalu penuh kecewa, kau lebih pantas bahagia atas jalanku. Bring me to life. Sure if you want it you already got it, if you tought it, it better what you want. Nobody’s know. Just why we’re here. Could it be fate. At the right place, at the right time. In the road intertwine. It’s complicated. It’s all by myself. He was a boy, i am a girl. Can i make it anymore obvious? What more can i say ! salahkah bila ku tak henti mengharapkannya, meskipun akhirnya ku taukau hanya buatku terluka. Don’t play a losing game or play just to win. But, i can’t over you, bab ! may be i’m crazy in love … no, no, no …

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